Monday, December 22, 2008

I am so dreadfully far away!

I am in the south of California and it is blagh, okay. I am at grandma's and there is no one to keep my company, so you, trusty blog, will have to do!

Eliot and I are workin' on a collab. I write, she illustrates. I'm gonna post what I have so far here so you can seeeee!

Enjoy.

(This piece is currently saved on my computer under the document name "Unicornz To Be Illustratedz)

When she was five, Elias saw her first unicorn.

It passed by her window on a winter’s night when the panes of glass were like hazy sheets of ice that glimmered in the moonlight.

With one large, unblinking eye, it looked in and exhaled. In the next moment, it had disappeared. Its warm breath left a sunburst of clarity on her window. Through it, Elias could see the darkened houses across the street.


By morning, the unicorn’s impression on her glass was still there. Over cornflakes, Elias told her mother what had happened.

Her mother stood with her back to Elias as she stirred heavy cream into a mug of coffee.

“Well,” she said, her voice laden with indifference. “You were named after a prophet.”

The word rang like a bell in the air and Elias rolled it over in her mouth for the first time. It tasted delicious.


The second unicorn came shortly after Elias’s eighth birthday. She didn’t have a party that year. Instead, her parents bought tickets to an opera performance. They said they were giving her culture as a gift, and that she would appreciate it in the future.

In the darkened auditorium, Elias sat next to a man with a thick, beautiful mustache and a monocle dangling from the pocket of his jacket. During particularly violent scenes, he would hold it to right eye and lean forward.

During intermission, he turned to Elias for the first time. His dour expression shifted to one of wonderment. “It’s you,” he said. He turned and looked around, suddenly frantic. “Excuse me, my dear. I must go.” He stuffed his monocle in his pocket and shuffled towards the aisles with the rest of the crowds that were headed towards the washrooms.

Before Elias could ask how he knew her, he was gone. He did not return for the rest of the performance.


Elias was once again in her room when the second unicorn arrived. This time, it lingered. So as not to startle it, Elias crept forward on her bed until she could rest her cheek against the window.

“Hello,” she said, and the unicorn snorted in response. It left just as softly as the last one had, without the sound of a single hoof striking against the cement. She did not know what the unicorn’s arrival meant, but she knew that it must be significant.

The next day, Elias watched her parents for signs that something had changed, but all seemed as it was before. It wasn’t until she walked herself to school that the event occurred.


The monocled man swooped out of nowhere. One moment, Elias was rounding a corner, and the next, the man had his viselike grip on her upper arm. He pulled Elias into the alley between the exotic sausage shop and the Baptist church.

Her first instinct was to scream. But then the monocled man brought a finger up to his lips and released her arm. There was something so serious and earnest in his expression that it seemed more practical to wait to see what he had to say before she started yelling for help.

“My dear,” he said, his tone apologetic. “I am sorry I acted so rudely just now. It is just that the matter I must discuss with you requires the utmost privacy.”

Elias said nothing.

The man leaned in, his face mere inches from hers. She held her breath. His gaze was searching. “My dear,” he asked. “It is very important that you tell me the truth. Have you seen anything strange recently?”


Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Le Tigre circa 2000!

Look what i found! Old-school Le Tigre footage!

Oct 12, 2000 at Rice University, Houston TX. AWESOME


I was like, in 6th grade. wow.

(this is kinda turning into a music/video blog now... hmmm)

Friday, November 14, 2008

music post

This is Jana Hunter, from New York.

"Palms."


(okay, I really am too lazy to scan any of my drawings so i just do these kind of posts instead :/ wait until the end of the semester! honest. or when i'm actually done worrying about my school projects, haha. i'm lame.)

i just discovered this band this/previous morning and I am very addicted:

Now, Now Every Children from Minnesota,
"Friends With my Sister."


I've been listening to the four songs they have on their myspace over and over and over. And then i was pretty much enthralled when I saw that their record label accepts money orders ('cuz i don't have a credit card lolololol). Yay for snail mail orders! They opened for mates of state(!!) when they were in their ... uh, state (MN). that's street cred right there! lucky them. :)

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Updatez on Lyf

Hi, hi and many apologies for being away for so long -- special apologies to you, Eliot. It has been too long; I know.

I don't have much to update on by way of arts and crafts or anything, though I hope to start regularly doodling/collaging in the pages of my new moleskine, and when that happens, I will be sure to upload some photos for your viewing pleasure.

But right now, my big project is -- dun, dun, dun! NaNoWriMo! For those of you who don't know, that's National Novel Writing Month. The idea is that you have to write 50,000 words (that's a 175-page novel) in the month of November. I'm not doing it alone. My roommate and I are tackling a young adult romance idea with each of us taking one character, Nick and Norah style. It's sort of silly, but it's also very fun.

My character is Cassandra, a 17-year-old girl who is on the wrestling team and has no domestic skills whatsoever. She meets Max, a shy mathlete, in Home Ec, and you know the rest. Sparks fly, blah blah blah. It's very predictible, but we needed something where we could easily pound out the pages every day. Right now we're at 26,000 words, which is 90 somethin' pages double spaced or something. Crazy, yeah?

Here's a brief excerpt from the beginning-ish:

"He's tall and lanky with messy dark hair and square plastic frames, which makes me immediately think, Wow. He must kind of be a dork. The plaid button-up doesn't help, nor does the fact that I'm pretty sure I just saw a guy with a cape wave goodbye to him. Yeah, he must be that kind of dork -- the hide-in-the-basement-after-school-and-play-computer-games variety. He could be cute in a sort of endearing, awkward boy kind of way, but I can tell just by looking at him that he's never played a competitive sport in his life, which translates to "We have nothing in common" which then translates to "Not my type."

But that's not what I'm really thinking about, because who cares if this guy is cute, he's weird. Because he's stopped in the middle of his tracks and he's staring at me, and I swear to God, this guy looks terrified. At first I think it's because maybe he's scared of girls and he's thinking, "Shit, I have to sit next to one!" but that doesn't make sense because why else would he sign up for this class, except to get in with the ladies?

And the way he's looking at me isn't nervous-anxiety fear, but more like trapped-gazelle-facing-lioness-in-the-savannah fear. And I know I've been told that I am a fucking beast on the wrestling mat, but seriously, I think I look like a pretty normal seventeen-year-old girl, so if he actually thinks that I look threatening, then this guy is the biggest wimp I've ever encountered."

One more thing!

We've come up with a playlist to accompany our writing process (with the hopes that if we ever get published, we can stick it in the back of the book as a supplement), and so I will include that here:

1. "Bruises" -Chairlift
2. "Young Love" -Mystery Jets
3. "Cha Cha Cha" -The Little Ones
4. "Fidelity" -Regina Spektor
5. "Loose Change" -The Morning Benders
6. "Little Bit of You in Everything" -The Rentals
7. "Girl You've Really Got Me Going" -The Kinks
8. "Confines of Gravity" -PlayRadioPlay!
9. "Oh Be One" -Oh No! Oh My!
10. "Funny Little Frog" -Belle & Sebastian
11. "Parentheses" -The Blow
12. "Cross Your Fingers" -Laura Marling
13. "Whistle for the Choir" -The Fratellis
14. "Swimming Pool" -The Submarines
15. "Say Yes if You Love Me" -Acid House Kings
16. "When Did Your Heart Go Missing" -Rooney
17. "Dust Me Off" -Tilly and the Wall
18. "Death" -White Lies
19. "Even Fairy Tale Characters Would Be Jealous" -PlayRadioPlay!
20. "You and I" -Ingrid Michaelson

Enjoy!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Tegan and Sara ...

... they played four dates in Los Angeles and did this brutally beautiful cover of Weezer's "Tired of Sex," with former Weezer member Matt Sharp on the bass. (I love Tegan and Sara and Weezer, and always miss out on their stupid shows when they come to the bay area, just like last monday. I missed out on the Weezer show at my university due to stupid, stupid, homework.)

...and here I go again obsessively watching multiple versions over n' over n' over!

10/17:


10/18:


10/19:


okay, there must have been a bajillion tapers at those four shows, and i'm really not going to bother hunting down the best videos. haha.

I wish i was there, man!

ps.

Felix, I know you are busy with school, but I kinda miss your blog posts. I sure do hope you post sometime soon!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Cat Power, Bus people, 4 AM.

I don't listen at all to Cat Power-- but i don't care. I don't care if its 4 AM-- I might as well pass out right now. I don't know why I'm doing this! I've posted this video before in my livejournal from a LONG time ago, but i don't care. This is something you can't just watch once. It's so gripping and soul-taking. Oh, that doesn't make any sense.

this performance is so beautiful it makes my heart break (I'm a cheeseball):

Cat Power, "Metal Heart."


PS.
i rode the bus home yesterday afternoon, and there was this creepy man with a mirror a couple of seats down from me. He held this tiny mirror up to see the people behind him. He was probably looking at me with it, since i spotted him and looked right into his mirror, in which he he immediately put it into his pocket. Later on, he pulled out his little mirror again, this time trying to nonchalantly read some advertisements tucked into his pocket. Weird-o. I KNOW YOU ARE NOT READING THE ADS! Oh! Wait! He must be looking at his pores or something equally creepy on his face! No, maybe not. It would be something i would do if I was a total creep, but i'm not that creepy. There are all sorts of weirdo rejects who ride public transportation, and i mean that in the most truthful way possible. People just want to keep to themselves when they ride the bus. They don't want nobody taking up their personal space bubble by being loud or being creepy. No sir.

PPS.
hopefully i will scan/photograph all the comic strips i have been making for my 112A illustration class. My school workload is becoming ridiculous, and I really haven't much time even to read a book and finish it on my own...

PPPS.
does "post mark" even work for blog entries? or does it only work in letters?

Also, i find it funny when people watch musician/band performances on youtube and they ask, "Is the singer drunk/high?" when they act all erractically. You can't sing properly while you're drunk. If you are high on drugs, you might sound like ... oh, I really don't know, but something awful. Have these people only seen low-rate local bands with teenagers just standing stiffly/rocking stiffly back and forth with their back to the crowd for the most of the set? Or have they not seen a musician perform at all? It's called being with it, dude. It's called losing yosself in the moment. It's called, I'm So Bored Performing This Song All Over Again And Again I Think I Will Do Something Weird And Unnatural To Amuse Myself. Ha!

Monday, September 22, 2008

112A sketchbook

Hey y'all. Here is a little quickie I've done for my daily sketchbook for my ART 112A class. I sort of used life reference so I won't get points knocked off for drawing right off the top o' my head/from imagination.

The sketchbook of my paper is terrible like it didn't get dried enough and is really soft. I want crisp paper! It was eight bucks anyway , so... no, it's not okay. I get pissed off every time I draw in it with a ballpoint pen because paper isn't crisp enough. It's like the paper is perpetually wet, but it's obviously dry and real soft. What's even worse is that I'm stuck with it for a year. I might as well go switch to a new sketchbook, but it might be too much hassle. Whatever, it's cool, I can deal. :)

I've been listening to the Black Keys and The Battle of Land and Sea as of late, over and over, and again and again. Forever. The typeface of the body text in the blog really bothers me and I don't know how to fix it. :/

bluesy rock from Akron, Ohio: The Black Keys

indie folk from Portland, Oregon: Battle of Land and Sea


I'll try how to do fancy streaming mp3 posts on here, someday. For now, click on them myspace links...

Monday, September 15, 2008

book crushes and paint paints


So today I thought I'd take the liberty of completely gussssshing about a favorite book of mine, and of course, I had to go with "Norwegian Wood," by Haruki Murakami. Now, I know that Murakami is kind of the hip and socially-acceptable author for college students to rave about, but oh my gosh, this book! So emotional, so beautifully (and simply) written. I've reread it twice this summer alone, and I still love it. Still, still, still.

I have the biggest lit-envy about this book -- I want to be able to write something this moving. It's a good summer read too, incredibly enjoyable and engaging. It goes by like nothing. I keep picking up other books this summer, but I only get through a few pages before I go back to this one. Maybe I'm over-hyping it (I probably am). So dont't take my word for it -- go pick up a copy yourself!

In other news, I've been paint-paintin' like a child some more. Girls and pets. Hoorah! Eliot's so good with the music posts -- I'm sorry I've been a little absent, but I'll make up for it, I promise.

marissa nadler again

I told you I am obsessive: this video is much better than any of the previous ones I posted.

"Fifty Five Falls / Annabelle Lee" at the Hemlock Tavern, San Francisco, 2007.



(man, the youtube interface is so outdated and ugly! I hope it gets redesigned and gets as pretty as the other video services out there.)

Sunday, September 14, 2008

the cruxshadows; marissa nadler

Hello. Instead of doing more important things, I am blogging again. :)

The first song I have for you is one I recall downloading off the internet when I was in 7th or 8th grade, and it was totally fleeepin' awesome. I knew a friend who was into "darkwave" music (actually a much older sister of a classmate) and so I decided to venture out on the internet and listen to that kind of stuff. You know, remember goth people?

The Cruxshadows, "Deception," 2000. (Yes, I know it looks tacky, but it was the post 90s...)



The next video is a folk song made out of Edgar Allan Poe's poem, "Annabelle Lee." Back in 7th grade, I stumbled upon that poem in my english book. Being new to American literature (I had lived in the Philippines when I was five to about eleven, or maybe four to ten years old, but I am not sure anymore), I thought Annabelle Lee was the most awesome poem ever that I still experience a sort of catharsis whenever I read it. So when I saw this live video of folksinger Marissa Nadler, I fell in love all over again.

In this live performance she mixes together another song of hers with "Annabelle Lee", and brought a whole new dimension to the poem. Joan Baez also made a rendition of "Annabelle Lee," but I've yet to hear it. It must be awesome...

Marissa Nadler, "Annabelle Lee/Fifty Five Falls"performed in 2007. Ignore the noisy people. The video may not be much to look at, but the audio is excellent:


Since I am a total freak and obsessively listen to versions of the same song, click here for another performance of "Annabelle Lee." I used to listen to different live versions of Tegan and Sara's "Living Room" so I hear the stylistic changes they made during live shows. Also, I totally lied about posting artwork again, but I won't give any excuses. Excuses are lame.

- Eliot

Monday, September 8, 2008

Who is Laura Marling?

This is Laura Marling:

"Cross Your Fingers/Crawled Out of the Sea"


... and she's only 18! She's a real good singer (obviously!!) and I dig her music. I had no idea who she was until a good fifteen minutes ago, but that time reference really doesn't matter because it doesn't. Nope. She belongs to a major label in the U.K., apparently. According to Wikipedia she is associated with the band Noah and the Whale, whose song appeared in a commercial, probably. I might be making that up, but my cousin showed me this crazy video of the Noah and the Whale song "5 Years Time" because he wanted to play the ukulele part and show it to me, and it was probably the song that appeared in the commercial. That's a long sentence. Felix will probably cringe reading this. My high school english teachers would probably be giving me big fat "Fs!" for my grades. But ahhh don't caaaaaaareeee. No, sir.

Also, I lied: last post I said would post some artwork, and it's obvious that I didn't. Maybe tomorrow. :)

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Radiohead "Nude" remix by James Houston / Bikini Kill circa 1992


Big Ideas (don't get any) from James Houston on Vimeo.

This was all made with: hard drive disk sounds, a Sinclair ZX spectrum (I'm too young to know what exactly that thing does), an old Epson dot printer, and an HP scan jet scanner. Personally, I haven't heard the original "Nude," but dang! I cannot stop watching/listening this video/remix. I've pretty much lost count as to how many times I've watched it, and I'm supposed to be doing something else.



Bikini Kill, "Feels Blind," Live in Washington D.C., April 4th, 1992.

I love this video too. The girl that the camera focuses on for most of the song is so awesome. She's so into it the song! I want meet her/want to know what she is doing nowadays.

I'll get to posting some art tomorrow. My homework load is still freaking me out, but hopefully I can deal with this.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

pour le petit ami...


C'est le garcon dans ma vie... il est mignon, non?

In case you cannot tell, it is an Indian elephant. Hoorah for watercolors and animals and bright colors and all such wonderful things.

Here's un plus --

Je suis un girafe!

In other news, today I was at the library at 8 a.m. and stumbled across "20th Century Ghosts," a collection of short stories by Joe Hill. I only got through the first story and found it a bit too explicitly gruesome for my tastes - I've never been one to enjoy descriptions of people being maimed and tortured - but the writing was pretty engaging and from the reviews I've read, the other stories are more subtle.

If I can find it again when I go back, I might try another short story -- we'll see.

Tomorrow's Thursday! I can't help but live for countdowns to the weekend, sigh.

ART 112A assignment: comic #1

This comic was for an assignment I turned in earlier today for my Intro to Illustration class (ART 112A for all you SJSU fiends), and this is one of the first "big" assignments. Eventually we'll get tougher, tedious assignments regularly that will keep me up all night. Frankly, I'm kind of scared of this semester because I have tons of work not just from my art classes but from my academic classes as well, but I hope everything will turn out alright.

I kind of "cheated" on this because the storyline was created in when I was in high school (I reworked the last half because I am never happy with it). I'll post my old versions later, but for now, here it is:


PS:
This version has all the pencil lines on the page (taken at 4 in the morning, probably). I'll update with the final version when I get my comic back. :)

Monday, September 1, 2008

8. i love ghost world and i am totally freaking out

my blood pressure is really high for no reason. well, maybe it's because I still have homework to do and i have a one-minute speech tomorrow. Yes, a one-minute speech. It will be about zines, and I will bring in a zine that Felix, a couple of friends, and I made back in high school. It makes me happy, but I am worried that no one will know what the hell I'm talking about and will look at me confusedly.

okay. now i am doubly freaking out because Fantagraphics is coming out with a Ghost World special edition, a comic by Daniel Clowes. It's so witty. I heard the movie was different from the comic, and i've yet to see it. Ghost World starts out as a story between two girls who are best friends that just graduated high school, and by the end of summer, they start drifting away from each other because of different roads they want to take in life. It was also drawn and set in the 1990s. I love the 1990s. Most of the comics I love are set in the 90s, and I thus have this odd penchant for the decade (comic works by Adrian Tomine and Los Bros Hernandez's Love and Rockets contributed to that). I will stop gushing now.

here is a little video that fantagraphics made of the to-be released special edition of Ghost World, featuring the original comic in addition to other special fun ... special... pages. Yes, I'm not very descriptive, but it's "special." Oh, I'm freaking out:






Tuesday, August 26, 2008

i am bad at this


Pile o' watercolor critters! :)

I am bored cubicle rat!

Hello, hello -- Felix Little checking in here. I just had a pleasant lunchtime art-viewing session with Eliot and another one of my friends, and suddenly my little cube seems terribly drab. Eating dry sandwiches at the desk and breathing in the scent of new printer paper and Accent highlighters -- my oh my, it doesn't get much more exciting than this, now does it?

Thus, I am going to use this post to gush about my favorite new anthology, which I discovered months ago and have been in raptures about since.

This is kind of my admission that I am secretly a huge sap and I adore love stories more than anything else. But!!! This collection is so, so shiny and beautiful and unexpected. It's edited by Jeffrey Euginedes, and though the only thing I've read of his has been The Virgin Suicides, but his command of language is just breathtaking. Middlesex is definitely on my list of must-reads though... And this lovely Valentine's Day anthology comes to us from McSweeney's, which is just about my favorite online lit mag to check ever, so I'm not surprised that it is a gem of an anthology.

A couple amazing stories that must be read:

"The Moon in Its Flight" - Gilbert Sorrentino

So pretty, so heartbreaking. Pure teenage love, plus some nifty literary tricks. The use of metafiction here is so very well done and it never distances you from the emotion in the story.

"First Love and Other Sorrows" - Harold Brodkey

There are two stories by Brodkey in this anthology -- this one and "Innocence," which chronicles a very persistent narrator's attempts to pleasure his college girlfriend. This one - the story of a boy watching his sister fall into a socially/financially desirable marriage and leave the family - definitely won me over though. Emotionally complex and exploring different types of love (first crushes, marriage-seeking and also familial love), this was a lovely choice for first story in the book.

"The Hitchhiking Game" - Milan Kundera

What happens when we pretend to be other people. Do we lose our sense of self? Do we lose our connection to each other? A perfectly angsty little addition.

"The Lady With The Little Dog" - Anton Chekhov

I was trying to decide which classic short story I was more excited to see in here -- this one or "The Dead" by James Joyce. Though I'll always adore Joyce, I really love the simplicity of this story and the way that Checkhov paints his adulterous characters so sympathetically. Really, really nice story to read and reread.

Andddd YEP. I could probably provide an OMGZAMAZINGILOVEIT synopsis for almost every story in here, but I'll leave it at this.

Expect a creative post soooooon! I'm feeling inspired.

<3, Felix

Friday, August 22, 2008

8. old stuff, again. starring eliot small


see here, none of this stuff is new. I'm incredibly out of practice that I will be put to shame when I start my illustration classes on August 25th. I'm shakin' in my boots here. Wish me luck! :)

Here's some old unused character design:

watch out for hipsters! or scenesters, or whatever you call them.


fail.

Monday, August 11, 2008

7. cupcake costume and schoolgirl legs

this is eliot posting today.

i hung out with felix and a friend one friday and i drew this:


and here is something old (2o07ish):
y'all should expect some more posts in the next few days. i'll post some stuff from my sketchbooks that hardly anyone has ever seen, so yehhh.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

6

Felix here again... just posting some new writing tidbits that I wrote from my cubicle job. Yet untitled and also unfinished... Maybe I'll get to it someday.

1.

The girl in the purple room is too, too lovely. The walls are deep, plum, like your grandmother’s old sweater set. Against the startling darkness, the girl stands pale in a white nightgown like an open window set against the night.

“Hello,” she says without showing any teeth. The girl has her hands clasped in front of her – they too are white and soft-looking, like the backs of knees and elbows. “Welcome.”

The house is not one that you have entered before; the address came to you on parchment paper one day in the metal mailbox that sits at the edge of your property. You have not received a request like this in years, not since the days of your boyhood. It unnerves you that anyone remembers your boy detective days, that anyone would address you with, “Dear Sir, I may be in need of your assistance in solving this most distressing mystery…” but there it is. Sealed in an envelope the size of a postcard; how singularly bizarre.

You approach the girl and you take off your hat. “Hello Miss,” you say, and the words roll around in your mouth like marbles, strange and cold. “I believe you needed my assistance?”

“Ah yes,” replies the girl, unfolding her hands and reaching out for yours. You take her hand and shake it; it feels dry and soft like a freshly powdered cheek. “Yes, please come this way.”

You follow her down a hallway lined with glossy mahogany panels punctuated with runny watercolor paintings, and you must wonder, what are you getting yourself into?

xxx

It has been a dozen years since you read mysteries under the covers at midnight and traversed the town with your homemade business cards -- “boy detective,” they said, and your aunts and uncles would chortle and shake their heads at your hopeless ambition. Young Johnny, fourteen years old, living in a small town – what kind of mysteries were there to solve, anyway?

But sometimes you get a strike of luck, like that one lost little girl, the one you found while picking smooth stones by the creek bed for your slingshot. Eight, maybe nine years old, dressed in that tragically torn up pair of overalls. “Mister, mister,” she said, tears streaming and hands balled up into fists. “Mister, can you help me?”

You knew that she was lost, that there was some reason her clothes were ripped, her hair asunder. She was dark-haired, slender, quiet and not too troublesome as you took her by the hand and walked her towards the fields.

“I live over there,” she said, pointing at a distant house. There was a dark copper smear near the pocket of her overalls. The left hook was undone. “Thank you, thank you so much.”

You watched the girl run towards her house; her gait was lopsided, she moved with her legs farther apart than necessary. She did not ask you to, but you watched until she reached the door, watched for the unnatural movement of grass or strange silhouettes on the horizon.

Afterwards, you walked home with your slingshot in your hand and stones in your pockets. Each step brought the clinking of some heavier truth closer to you.

xxx

“Do you know why you’re here?”

“Not really.”

A pause. You are in what seems to be a large study with the girl in white; she is standing next to an imposing black leather chair. Her face is turned away from you.

“I was afraid of that.”

xxx

You never saw the little girl by the creek ever again, though you came back almost every day for the entirety of that summer. You would sit on the banks with your feet ankle-deep in the cool, gushing water as you waited for the sun to set. You never even got her name. You thought it must have been something pretty and simple like Sarah or May. You fantasized about saving her from whatever it was that had sullied her on that warm evening.

It must have been a man, you thought, though you don’t know why that crosses your mind first.

A big, unshaven man with rough hands and hot breath.

One day, you thought you saw her out of the corner of your eye, dressed in a yellow sundress with her hair loose. But when you turned, there were just fields of dried out grass, golden and brittle.

“Hello,” you said, your voice cracking as it carried across the field. “Hello, are you there?”

But there was no answer but the oppressive hush of a summer day.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

5


Little tidbits of writing plus a quick watercolor of a horseee! Yay!

------

Cut your hair, little girl; gather the clippings in your palms. Breathe in these sharp fragrant strands. Feel the tickle in your esophagus.

Take a step back, little girl; throw your hands up like confetti. Let your fingers kiss that empty space that hangs above your head with such devotion, such loyalty. Tell it, thank you, thank you – I can always count on you.

Do not mention that night in the crawlspace, your head brushing against the ceiling, no space in between. You have already forgiven it for that instance of abandonment.

(Forgiveness, forgiveness – little girl, you must believe in remorse and redemption).

Emptiness, he is your only friend, floating above like a personal rain cloud.

Little girl, can’t you feel the bleakest corners creeping in? The dark horses gallop to the foot of your bed; they scrape their hooves on the walls of your dreams and they wait, wait, wait.

Little girl, won’t you let them in?

Sunday, July 20, 2008

4

So, though Eliot will be the one who will be uploading more of the arts and I will be posting more snippets of writing, here is a bit of a foray into watercolor from me.

Elephant + part of a children's story that I am not working on (it's just a sample page).

Yay for watercoloring like a child! I'm so excited.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

3.

So, this is to show that Eliot is actually here. I'm very lazy. Thank you Felix for kickstarting this blog. Felix is the more wordy of us two, and I bumble quite a lot with words. I prefer to draw things, even if i am not very good at it.

Without further ado, here is one of my summer habits:



Crude, i know. I'm a bum. bum bum bum!

Friday, July 18, 2008

five minute poetry


I snuck away from work and sat down to write some five minute poetry instead.

Here is "Mice, Mice" (a poem written at 4:30 p.m. in the study area of the library).

Darkening – the sound of mice against
The hardwood floor of your childhood, and
This great gasp of space,
Nervous feet against moonlit flesh,
The pattering, the brushing, the
Squeak squeak squeak!
You say –
Come here, little creature.
Let me give you a home.

xxx

In the pantry,
Spoons compete with scattered oatmeal dust.
Grit against your tongue,
Metal on your lip.
Your midnight visitor is nowhere to be found.

xxx

When the shadows fall, you will:
Tape the traps to the posts of your bed,
Lay the crumbs on your pillow,
And wait to touch
Soft fur once more.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

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Hello!

Testing, testing.

I think it is high time we start using this little bloggle, so Eliot, darling, I hope you don't mind if I write the first entry here. It can be a pilot first entry, if you want -- we'll fill it with something better when we think of something.

I am Felix Little -- the other contributor to this blog shall be Eliot Small. We are two little critters peeking out from behind computer monitors; we spend our lives planning to create spectacular projects that are rarely actually realized.

I believe that with this blog, we wanted to expose our neuroses and share our works.

So right! Hello, hello. Welcome to The Habits of Stable Unstable People. (We are the stables and unstables, in case you did not figure that out.)

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

eliot's first post.

well. hello internet!

this blog... it will be... it will be about the habits of stable unstable people. the "people" are me, Eliot Small, and my friend, Felix Little.

that description was no help! let this be the blog of something you, dear internet people, are glad you wish you weren't or something you know you are. it's one or the other.

ps.

i just realized i made this post a month before Felix did and totally forgot about it. i'm publishing it now (it's july, i made this in august. i LOLed.)

pps.

Felix just pointed out to me i wrote this post in august '08. what!? sorry, typo. it's june. i lol'ed again.